Trusting Blind

It's simply amazing when God brings you up from the valley, toward the mountaintop. If you've read my posts since 2010, you know that life has been interesting for me, to say the least(!). I've been in situations that for some have become insurmountable; yet God continued to keep me going. For a while, I didn't know what I was going toward, but I knew that God had much more for me.

I know that some of you have given up on experiencing your dreams or restoration. It seems that the length of time you've been in the valley has been so long that it is your answer of NO. I lived in that space for a bit off and on...it's a rough place to be; full of doubt, indecision and self-sabotage. As a person who must have something to do...to feel needed and valued...the past 5+ years have been the most difficult in my life and there have been times when I was close to accepting that I would go no further as far as successes...that I would forever be grounded to a complete halt, taking singing gigs here and there and that would be my contribution to society. I was willing; but I felt that I still had so much more to offer!!! It was a rough space, but I tried to keep my trust in God true.

So my last straw was the loss and grief experience of last year which ended in North Carolina. During that time, I felt lost, confused, disappointed and out of favor from God. I spent a good portion of time in a fog of despair. Then one day, I made the conscious decision that I would step toward my future--not knowing what kind of future that would be. For a type-A, Plan A-B-C-D...ZZZZ person like me, this was the scariest thing that I had ever done. The step I took was to "Trust Blind". I came home not knowing what was waiting for me and in my mind, I was coming back a failure. I prayed for a few things: for work and the chance to make a difference, transportation, and a companion. I was thinking pretty small and God took notice. I took my tentative steps and was rewarded over and over. I took a step by offering my services to my Alma Mater--not knowing that they needed a teacher to teach the classes that matched with my educational and work background!! I took another tentative step a few months later and received a vehicle that I would've never imagined I could get after the last financially empty years that I've had!! I took another VERY tentative step and God gave me someone to love, care for, appreciate, and support me!! God is beyond amazing and I thank him for all that He has given me!!

I know I don't deserve, all the good things that He's done,

But He keeps on, He keeps right on,

He keeps right on blessing me!!!

Trusting Blind might not seem like the best way, but I PROMISE you it will turn out to be THE way to get to where God can truly bless you!!!  Trust Him and the process of getting there. You'll NEVER be the same!!

ONWARD

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