It's simply amazing when God brings you up from the valley, toward the mountaintop. If you've read my posts since 2010, you know that life has been interesting for me, to say the least(!). I've been in situations that for some have become insurmountable; yet God continued to keep me going. For a while, I didn't know what I was going toward, but I knew that God had much more for me.
I know that some of you have given
up on experiencing your dreams or restoration. It seems that the length of time
you've been in the valley has been so long that it is your answer of NO. I
lived in that space for a bit off and on...it's a rough place to be; full of
doubt, indecision and self-sabotage. As a person who must have something to
do...to feel needed and valued...the past 5+ years have been the most difficult
in my life and there have been times when I was close to accepting that I would
go no further as far as successes...that I would forever be grounded to a
complete halt, taking singing gigs here and there and that would be my
contribution to society. I was willing; but I felt that I still had so much
more to offer!!! It was a rough space, but I tried to keep my trust in God
true.
So my last straw was the loss and
grief experience of last year which ended in North Carolina. During that time,
I felt lost, confused, disappointed and out of favor from God. I spent a good
portion of time in a fog of despair. Then one day, I made the conscious
decision that I would step toward my future--not knowing what kind of future that
would be. For a type-A, Plan A-B-C-D...ZZZZ person like me, this was the
scariest thing that I had ever done. The step I took was to "Trust
Blind". I came home not knowing what was waiting for me and in my mind, I
was coming back a failure. I prayed for a few things: for work and the chance
to make a difference, transportation, and a companion. I was thinking pretty
small and God took notice. I took my tentative steps and was rewarded over and
over. I took a step by offering my services to my Alma Mater--not knowing that
they needed a teacher to teach the classes that matched with my educational and work
background!! I took another tentative step a few months later and received a
vehicle that I would've never imagined I could get after the last financially
empty years that I've had!! I took another VERY tentative step and God gave me
someone to love, care for, appreciate, and support me!! God is beyond amazing
and I thank him for all that He has given me!!
I know I don't deserve, all the good
things that He's done,
But He keeps on, He keeps right on,
He keeps right on blessing me!!!
Trusting Blind might not seem like the
best way, but I PROMISE you it will turn out to be THE way to get to where God
can truly bless you!!! Trust Him and the
process of getting there. You'll NEVER be the same!!
ONWARD
#TrustBlind
#GodsGotIt
