Some days are harder than others to get through. When a few of those days string together, it makes one feel like a bull gingerly walking through a narrow aisle china shop!!
Most of the time, it's because of comparison living--it seems that when your life is going rough, EVERYONE ELSE seems to have such wonderful things happening and are living a stable life. Doesn't that seem to be the case??
I know what some of you are thinking; as a Christian, we can place this kind of thinking in the hands of the evil one as being no more than a distraction. But sometimes it's hard to see your way past the distraction!!
Taking one step forward, then being pushed back 10 is daunting, discouraging and disappointing. The best thing seems to just be still and let God take over. All that you've done prior to your struggles wasn't due to your "skill" and "abilities". It was ALL God's GRACE AND FAVOR. We have to let go of this dependence on ourselves and lean solely on God. "It is HE that hath made us and NOT WE OURSELVES" (Psalm 100:3)
Keep plodding. God will make it all clear one day. In the meantime, be okay with hanging out with God for now. Rest up, 'cause He's preparing you for something!!
ONWARD